A little Ellen DeGeneres to get this started. I love Ellen. She is so wise. Excpet, sometimes my haters really get me down. Over-hearing someone say "Man, has she put on weight." or hearing a friend refer to me as a "big girl" really set me back. I am a big girl. I have a big butt, big hoo-has, big "hoppy and bobs" (thats the arm fat that waves when you wave), but I also have a big personality, big spirit and a big determination! I let them get my down for a minute - but I am coming back!
I am a bit of a perfectionist, and feel that if I cant get to the gym everyday, I just shouldnt go at all. I also am the type of person who gives 100% to everything I do. Grad school and work have been kicking my tail - lots of work happening here, even if it isnt at the gym. 100% to work, 100% to school, 100% to my friends and family, 100% to my house... man, its a good thing I am a "big girl" thats 500%!!! Its also exhausting! I can recently be quoted as saying "If being fat is the worst thing about me, so be it!" But really, I dont want to be fat - I want to be healthy and I want my outside to match my inside!
With the return of my dear friend Sarah to Beaufort, I have returned to sweating my keester off!! On Saturday, Sarah and I walked the McTeer Bridge, included some lunges and squats and then did an ab workout! I really did not think that bridge would be that bad - holy cow! Sunday - I could barely move. (But I did manage to put on a pair of heels for a wonderful, sorta healthy dinner at the new Dockside.) This morning I got up and walked on the beach and did some school work. And this evening, Sarah and I walked the bridge again tonight. Adding more lunges and squats as well as some push-ups! (Those hater/motivators who feel the need to honk and yell - thanks for admitting that you are jealous of our drive to be healthier people!) Tomorrow, 3 circuits at the gym and then a walk while babysitting.
Why in the world would I let people who dont know me and have negative things to say about me outweigh (pun intended) my awesome friends who really know me? My friends who remind me of whats important to me, who emotionally support and encourage me to keep going, who remind me of my original goals and dreams and my friends who literally get me out and moving - they are all awesome! I am truly so blessed to have amazing people in my life and I owe it to them to live up to their expectations and I owe it to myself to trust them and to allow them to motivate me instead of strangers bring me down!
Eventually, I will wear smaller pants and be a thinner version of me - to the point where when people say "big girl" they are referring to my personality, not my body!!
